"today I dont feel like doing anything" (Story of my life)

Im not a very motivated person, I have a 'I'll do it later' attitude, stuff gets done but at my own pace, which appears to be at warp speed to others.

I have a new idea, or value I guess that I have decided to plant in my life garden, a part of my recipe for success and happiness. Never, ever procrastinate when it come to talking to people, friends, family or otherwise. So whilst implenting this I have made several attempts at talking to several different people who have ignored me, I dont think many people realise how much the're simply ignoring you says. To me it says 'I am so busy that I dont even have time to tell you that im busy' and 'Im so into myself that Im actually too lazy to tell you how my day was, even though you asked'.
So since these people are ignoring my existance I thought to myself 'will they still ignore me in 5, 10, 20 years? When something significant happens will they acknowledge it? Will we only communicate when we're forced into it?
Then I began to wonder why I get ignored and all I could think about is how I feel like Iv done something wrong, like that awkward moment when you walk into a room where people have been talking about you then it goes silent. It struct me that I'm being extrodited! (ignore the spelling). I dont fit a sterio type suitable for the people ignoring me, but I tell you what, I am who I Flipping am and I'm not gonna try for someone who wont try for me.

I am that student that passes 100%, I am the student body rep, I am opinionated and honest, I am gonna speak my mind, I am gonna do things that dont suit everyone, but they work for me. I do have a 10 year life plan that hasnt changed in the last 5 years, and I will always know people that you wont like.

This may not make a lot of sense to some people but I dont care how you Judge me, I just care that you are still Judging people because of how bad it makes you look.

Does anyone else feel like it would just be easier to give some people the big F you so you can stop thinking about them?

Things that help me get by

1. Buy expensive face care productds (they work!)
2. Don't diet just be aware of what u eat and exercise daily
3. Condition daily even if ur not washing
4. Exfoliate your hands with a TBsp of sugar and warm water
5. Keep a brains book (see brains book blog)
6. Keep moisturiser for hands handy
7. Make lists about EVERYTHING
8. Put a calendar in the toilet n a pen handy
9. If u can't afford it retail look on Trademe
10. Freeze ur jeans to get rid of odor, they only need to be washed when their grubby
11. Budget a month in advance
12. Record when u have to use ur savings to help future budgets
13. Plants make your room happier
14. Make a bedtime routine
15. Don't stress eat stress exercise
16. Stick goals where u van see them daily I.e bedroom food, fridge, ceiling above your bed

Brains book

So u see all these pretty books in stores but would never keep a diary. Keep a brains book!!
It's a book u take almost everywhere, n write down everything like...
- lists
- to do's
- reminders
- budgets
- goals and ideas
- nonsense
- a journal entry
- a drawing
- future FB status's
- dates for future events
Pretty much anything u can put on paper. I find its a great way to log what I do in a day so I can pick on flat mates later.

A week before a new blog

I hold no responsibility for spelling errors, using a smart phone for more then 10 words is a bit difficult.

I spent my weekend doing assignments and making posts that seemed to be creeping out a % of my face book friends, one post even got enough attention for my boy friends dad to Txt him to ask me to take it down, the content was not graphic it just simply said I had no pants on, the imagination can be a bit much for some people. Related to the same post was the deletion of a friend from my page, I wasnt unfriending them for life just from my page, but according to her it meant I must hate her, have always hated her and am generally excludeing her. Never mind the general negativity I was receiving each time we made contact. In summary this post made me out to be someone who flashes peoples imaginations well ensuring my status as a deletion Nazi, look out!!

So I'm not the most subtle person, nor am I girly minded, I bought clip in hair extensions having no previous experience with the things beyond laughing at the really bad looking ones, badly placed because of lack of know how (irony), however 45min in the mirror couldn't tell me how to get the fxxxing things to stay in my hair so I Txt a knowledgeable friend who never got back to me. Another 10min with madam minor and I gave you tube a go. The word clip in was my first hint. However thanks to some blonde in American the obvious became blantant, u POP the clip. Durrrrrrrrrrrrr. By the time I managed to made them look good I needed them to replace the hairs I'd pulled out!

Well here I am, 15kg over weight n with great goals to loose it n 0 commitment. No other real goals. Maybe to start using the $400 worth of stuff I bought to get rid of the weight.

Fml