Im not a very motivated person, I have a 'I'll do it later' attitude, stuff gets done but at my own pace, which appears to be at warp speed to others.
I have a new idea, or value I guess that I have decided to plant in my life garden, a part of my recipe for success and happiness. Never, ever procrastinate when it come to talking to people, friends, family or otherwise. So whilst implenting this I have made several attempts at talking to several different people who have ignored me, I dont think many people realise how much the're simply ignoring you says. To me it says 'I am so busy that I dont even have time to tell you that im busy' and 'Im so into myself that Im actually too lazy to tell you how my day was, even though you asked'.
So since these people are ignoring my existance I thought to myself 'will they still ignore me in 5, 10, 20 years? When something significant happens will they acknowledge it? Will we only communicate when we're forced into it?
Then I began to wonder why I get ignored and all I could think about is how I feel like Iv done something wrong, like that awkward moment when you walk into a room where people have been talking about you then it goes silent. It struct me that I'm being extrodited! (ignore the spelling). I dont fit a sterio type suitable for the people ignoring me, but I tell you what, I am who I Flipping am and I'm not gonna try for someone who wont try for me.
I am that student that passes 100%, I am the student body rep, I am opinionated and honest, I am gonna speak my mind, I am gonna do things that dont suit everyone, but they work for me. I do have a 10 year life plan that hasnt changed in the last 5 years, and I will always know people that you wont like.
This may not make a lot of sense to some people but I dont care how you Judge me, I just care that you are still Judging people because of how bad it makes you look.
Does anyone else feel like it would just be easier to give some people the big F you so you can stop thinking about them?
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